I am afraid that taking chemistry this summer has awakened the science nerd in me. Or am I a geek- not sure about the difference these days! When I began chemistry last fall and then promptly dropped it, all I could focus on was how awful the teacher was. I guess that goes to show how important teachers are! But this time around, I have remembered how much I love science. I took lots of science in high school and made a perfect score on my ACT in the science portion. I LOVED science! I really think the only reason I didn’t pursue any type of science career was because my father was a scientist and he would have been so happy if I had done that! For all of my wanting to be perfect in his eyes to prove to him I was worthy, I was not going to follow in his footsteps in any way, shape or form!
I realized today that I had made a long list of questions for my professor over the past few days, in anticipation of our exam review today. As I looked over them before the review, I realized that none of them were about the material to be covered for the test on Monday! They were all just nerdy questions I had about things that would go beyond what we are talking about in this introductory class. I made myself ask only one pertinent question and then I stayed quiet. I will have to just live in wonder about the rest of this stuff! (Or be my usual research nerd self and look it all up during my summer break!)
I have enjoyed everything in college more than I could have ever imagined. I enjoy the creative atmosphere in the theatre department, I enjoyed history and and see it’s connection to theatre, music, etc. (which is still shocking to me since I almost didn’t go back to school because I hated history so much!) and now I have been reacquainted with my love of science. It is so precise and like math (which I also love) it has one right answer.
I know, I know- I love discussions of lots of different opinions and when we have spent a class period discussing a Mamet play, I have been enthralled! But I also love the purity of something that does not allow for opinion- it is what it is! I know I love having furniture on a diagonal on a rug that is diagonal the other direction, but then I am soon bored and put everything in straight lines, perpendicular and at right angles! (And then I change things up again, later!) I guess that means I use the right side of my brain and the left side of my brain pretty equally- is that OK? I love order in most of my life and chaos in a few things. I love to be out and around people and I love to be alone for long periods of time. I love to read alone on the veranda for hours and sit with 100,000 of my friends at an Alabama game!I love the beach AND the mountains AND New York City.
This is why I never finished college the first time- too many choices!! I love it all and as long as I can learn and do research and write about it, I am pretty happy!
