Panama

I have been rendered speechless. I have just spent a week in Panama and I journalled constantly the entire trip. I came home really late on Saturday night- actually Sunday morning- and between a reaction to something that made my face break out and swell up on the last day of the trip and the beginnings of a summer cold, I have been resting and contemplating my journey ever since. I keep thinking about different things I could write about and then I realize I need to process each and every feeling I have for just a little longer. I need to think about how I really feel because most of my feelings are not what I hear from everyone else who makes one of these trips. And as usual, I worry that what I did, what I think and feel are not right. So for now I will continue to reread my journal and ponder my emotions before I write anything more. As with any “big thing” we do in life, I am definitely changed from this experience. But for now I have to think about how and why and what this change means to my life and my future. More to come…