I am not a procrastinator. In fact, I am actually the opposite.
When asked to direct a play in six months, I try to cast it immediately. If you need a job handled, I will do it right now. If I decide to do a project around the house, I want it finished yesterday.
If given the chance to do something now or later, I almost always pick now. Get it done! That way, if there is a problem, I have extra time to find the solution. Starting early is always best in my book!
When I returned to school a few years back, I was the person who wanted to start a project the day it was assigned. I was the kind who studied every night so I didn’t have to “cram” for a test. I was the person who would ask if we could turn things in early.
I am that kind of nerd.
Today, I realized that our current situation is changing that part of me.
Tim sent me a picture the other day that said, “Until further notice, the days of the week are now called Thisday,Thatday, Otherday, Someday, Yesterday, Today and Nextday!” I found myself trying to tell Tim about something at dinner last night and said, “I think it was last Friday, no maybe Thursday. Or Saturday?? Who knows, it was one day, but not today.”
It is all just a blur.
Today I realized that I am becoming a procrastinator. Instead of my usual “Let’s get it done now!” attitude, I decided that some of the chores on my list for today could wait. After all, it is cold. Well, cooler than it was. It is a beautiful day actually, but tomorrow should be a tad warmer so why not wait?
And the book I was going to read, well… I have a couple of weeks of nothing ahead so why not save it. And the shows I have finished make me not want to binge watch what I am currently consuming because then those shows will be over as well and where does that leave me? I am already mourning the loss of the Rose family and the end of my friendship with Eleanor and Chidi, what will I do when Heidi and Tim pick a winner and go away??
Putting off the end of a series, letting my to-do list sit ignored on my desk for days, realizing that there is really no hurry to start that project or plant those seedlings is so contrary to my usual personality.
Normally it would agitate me to have things hanging over my head, undone and neglected, but right now it almost seems prudent to save my last few shows, my last magazine and my next project in case this current situation continues longer than hoped.
I don’t think I want this new found procrastination to linger on once life gets back to normal. Being punctual, early even, in everything I do is a big part of who I am. That quality has made me trusted and seen as responsible and organized. For right now, however, getting in a hurry almost seems counterproductive. Trying to accomplish things too quickly seems like it could lead to frustration. Being more strategic with my plans, spacing things out, seems the way to go.
Just now I recieved 3 handwritten notes in the mail. You know the world is changing when people take to actually writing to each other! It made my heart happy to hear from friends and neighbors, to see the pretty note cards and stationary they used.
I think I will write them back and put off the other stuff I had on my list for today. After all, it makes more sense to write during this cold snap and go out to work in the yard on a warmer day. And we will have warmer days, but not today. Today I will just put off until Nextday what I should have done Yesterday. Or Someday. Maybe.
