Well, it was kind of a strange Easter but the weekend has been good. Yesterday was the first day I have had “off” in weeks. No rehearsal or workshops or duties. I had a paper to write and some studying to do but I decided one day off wouldn’t hurt so I cleaned my closet, went to eat with my guys and saw a movie. It was a nice day.
This morning in church I was so happy to have Jon stay and sit by me even though he had worked the earlier service. Then Anna and Scott sang and I got teary eyed. Then I saw that Suzanne was well enough to be there and I lost it! How blessed can I be?!?!
I came home and fixed dinner for just the three of us, a nice meal and we laughed and laughed but kind of sad that it is always just us three! In talking to a friend after church she described how wild and fun her holidays were when her extended family got together. But I am so happy for what I have and that we were all three here together!
Jon had to go back to school so I finished my paper finally and reread my journals for my theatre classes. It was weird to read back over the past 4 months- my accident, the rehearsal process for “The Bacchae”, the pain, the fear, the excitement, the friendships, the exhaustion. It has been an overwhelming semester and it is about to come to an end. I have a week of classes and a week of finals, juries and presentations before a break for a haircut, a spa day and then the beach with Stephen!
I have left classes in tears, I have stood up in honors day as my name was called for highest honors. I have laughed till I cried with new girlfriends and listened to others as they have cried over losing boyfriends. I have definitely had a full few months and I look forward to a rest before I start it all over again in July!
When we went to see Tim’s mom yesterday we left down a hall full of little old people, some who looked at us inquisitively and others who had no strength or emotion to even bother to look up. I again had tears in my eyes, for them and for me because as quickly as days pass now, it won’t be long before that could be me sitting there. And that is one of many reasons I continue this journey that takes so much out of me. I want to fulfill my dreams and “leave it all on the field” as it were. So I will continue to push on.