I have so much I want to write about and say and yet I don’t know where to start! Technically I am done. I have to turn in a journal tomorrow and then I am through. I am having one more voice lesson because I can’t give it up yet. I wanted to keep studying with my fabulous teacher Natalie, but she is off to the big time. I have a group voice master class and my last jury, but they are formalities because my grades will already be turned in and I will be a graduate in every way except walking across the stage on Saturday.
We had our final in Acting 3 today. Just the graduating seniors, since the actual final time is after the senior’s grades are due. I am thinking about showing up at the actual final time to see the other students perform just because they are so amazing and I love to watch them and see them grow. And also because I can not let go. How will I survive without Michael sitting next to me in class, or Matt calling me old? How will I go on without Alix’s helpful critiques? How will I survive without the knowing glances between myself and Caylan in ballet? Or Mary Kate laughing in Jazz when I fear for my life? How do I adjust to no more deep conversations about movies I do not want to see or even know about with Jenna and Frank after Directing 3? And speaking of Jenna, how do I behave without her and Melissa stalking me? I can’t begin to name all of the people I will miss- Chance, sorry- Brandon, who campaigned for so long to be in my blog and when I finally wrote about him in a way that me and every one I know cried, I was chastised by a professor and asked to censor myself. (I didn’t because I asked Chance and he was honored, not angered at all. And in case you are wondering Chance and I are opposed to censorship! And you will always be Chance to me!)
I heard a guy on the radio while I was driving home being interviewed for climbing Mount Everest. All I could think was that I may never be interviewed for it, but I feel like I just climbed a bigger mountain. OK I didn’t really, but it took me longer! And my next thought was, what do I do next. I need another goal. A new project. A new height to attain. And I am open to suggestions- just be real!
