I feel bad not writing. I see where hundreds of people have read my posts since the last time I wrote, even on Christmas Day! I feel awful that I did not have something cheery and/or heartwarming to share for the special day. But I did not. And I still don’t. I don’t want to be negative or call people out so I really have nothing to say. Tim was sick on Christmas Day, Jon got sick the next day and I am sick, but as Tim put it I am “too cool to admit to it!” I have told you before, I do not drop my guard and allow sickness to take me over if I can fight it.
The day after Christmas I took all of our decorations down and cleaned and rearranged the house. I had tons of dishes to do from the family dinner the night before. The tree had been up for over a month, a record for us, and although everything else had only been up a week, I was still ready to put it all away and forget about this holiday. I cleaned and rearranged all day. And then I collapsed. For the next full day I sat in a chair and read magazines and watched reruns. I could not breathe and my head was ready to explode. Tim brought me some medicine and I bounced back quickly. Yesterday I spent a big portion of the day taking Jon to the doctor. Luckily most of his problem was exactly what we thought, an allergic reaction to being around so much smoke. We had to make sure since Tim had been diagnosed with the flu, but Jon is so highly allergic to cigarette smoke that I knew the time he had spent outside watching out as his grandfather smoked would do him in. And it did. I have seen my child go into anaphylaxis shock and seen him go down quickly from just sitting near an ashtray where a cigarette had not been fully extinguished. I should have protected him more, but since they were outside and my son is such a big, strong guy I forget how weak his lungs can be when assaulted by tobacco. I will not make that mistake again.
So now we are just waiting for the new year. The last one has been like most, with good times and some not so good, with wonderfully amazing things happening and some truly awful things happening as well. Overall I would have to say it has been pretty forgettable. That is not at all what I would have expected when the clocked ticked midnight beginning 2012. And 2013? Who knows? Lots of potential for some real excitement and some potential for some real heartache, which again is true of most years.
I do love new years day. Especially when I am able to start with a fresh calendar, a clean house and lots to look forward to. There is just so much up in the air right now and so much I am unsure of, that I am having a hard time being as excited as I usually am. So I will take it one day at a time and I will try not to look too far in to the future. I have to be hopeful though, so many possibilities ahead. So Happy New Year!! We’ll see what 2013 brings!
