Someone asked me a couple of weeks ago if I was going to put out a book of devotionals. I kind of chuckled. Another friend sent me a devotional that she had written for her church for advent. It was really nice, but while I read it I realized right then that I probably couldn’t write devotionals. I have a devotional come to my email box every morning. It is inspiring. My writing- ehh.
I just write whatever comes into my head. An overheard conversation, an interview on TV, a feeling I have, just anything sets me to writing. But none of it is lofty enough to be anything more. I don’t know how to read a Bible verse and then make a meaningful comment on it.
And the prayer at the end?
My prayers are probably confusing to God. I’ve been told God “knows what I need before I ask,” but I wouldn’t be surprised if even God was not really sure after I ramble on for awhile. My best prayers are “God help us” and “Thank you.” Otherwise, I am all over the place!
So neat devotionals probably ain’t gonna happen!
I ran into a friend in the grocery store today and she told me she could hear the voice of another friend who we lost to cancer several years ago when she reads my blog. Another friend texted me that she just “binge read” my blog today.
To be honest, I started writing this blog 7 years ago when I went back to college. I wrote it with 2 friends in particular in mind. I knew with school I wouldn’t get to see them much for the next 3 years, so I wrote down my experiences for them and sent it out into the world. Little did I know that anyone else would read it. Yet, every month I seem to get more readers and this month my numbers of readers have been pretty amazing.
While in school I was once asked to take down a post, believe it or not. I try so hard to say just what I mean, but without using names or saying anything off color. But a professor didn’t like something I said and asked me to take it down. Being a rule follower, I did. (I have always regretted that I did. I sometimes regret being such a rule follower in general, if you must know!) I quit blogging for a while when that happened, almost quit altogether, but just couldn’t.
I do know that over the years my style has changed and what I write about has changed. What hasn’t changed is my pledge to be as honest as possible and to be as positive as possible. Sometimes though, there is a conflict there. I just don’t feel positive all of the time and that is being honest.
Bottom line, thanks for reading my blog. I am not sure why you read it. I hope I occasionally say something that makes you think or feel or both. I hope that I don’t tell the same stories over and over again, although I think maybe I do. Hopefully I put a different spin on them when I do that. Just chalk it up to getting old!
I will keep writing because I love it and I hope that you keep reading for the same reason.
And those two friends who I started the blog for?? They don’t read it!! Never really have. They don’t “do” computers.
