I know I have said this before and I even think I have promised on this blog not to say it again. But here I go. I am too old for this!!!!!
Today we had to do a group project which really got me stressed and I performed horribly. I got totally lost trying to read the script and I was not comfortable with the whole thing. Then I went to my voice lesson and my teacher made me do something I always hate to do- look in the mirror as I sang. I just saw an old woman that I try to forget is there. But I can’t forget, I am constantly reminded. It is what it is and I am having one of those days when all I can see is the folly of trying to do this. I don’t see anything on the “pro” side of the list right now, just the “con” side.
In the next two and a half weeks I have finals, juries, a workshop and and audition. I have to dance for a grade and sing for a grade. I have to try to do a monologue in a British dialect. We are all also still waiting to hear about our BFA auditions. And all I feel is foolish. I will never, ever get through this if my mood does not change! But foolish is all I see- and there is no fool like an old fool.
